Obedience and Calling – both are the two most familiar themes that I’ve been hearing and noticing on the Pastor’s Sermon, Devotionals and even the Mass Homilies that I’ve been attending.
As I reflect on what does it have to do with my every day life, I realized that I’ve been procrastinating on my schedule to write entries on this blog of mine.
The previous weeks, I vowed to re-learn and be more “techy” on blogging. I learned that not every comments and suggestions counts – specially if their intention is not for my best interest. When I decided to go back to blogging, I have already conditioned myself that I won’t be earning from this gig, since the main reason why I will be doing this is because I felt that GOD has prod me to do so – to share my experiences of “meeting” him everyday in whatever I am doing.
These past weeks has been tough for me since I am on the crossroad of deciding whether I should be continuing writing on this blog (as a sign of my obedience to GOD) or follow what my head is dictating me to do – give up this project. Blogging is not an easy career as you have to learn a lot of technicalities, draft contents, plan each entries you will be posting, be open to criticism as you share a part of yourself on what you write aside from the fact that you will be shelling out financial resources to pay the web hosting services, domain name and site maintenance.
To make the story short, I’ve been seriously considering giving up this project or to move my entries on a more affordable platform. I’ve been praying a lot this past weeks for GOD to guide me to come up with the best decision for this blog. After all, it was for his Glory that I decided to return to blogging.
When I finally came up with a decision, I was reminded of the times I choose to fear and did not obey GOD when I sense him proding me to get out of my comfort zone and travel the unknown path. As a result, I was stucked in the shelf buried with my skills and talents because I did not choose to have a leap of faith.
Similar to what the Israelites had when they wandered for forty years in the desert as a result of their disobedience to GOD.
Numbers 14:34 (NASB)
“According to the number of days which you spied out the land, forty days, for every day you shall bear your guilt a year, even forty years, and you will know my opposition”.
“So the LORD’s anger burned against Israel, and He made them wander in the wilderness forty years, until the entire generation of those who had done evil in the sight of the LORD was destroyed.”
“For the sons of Israel walked forty years in the wilderness, until all the nation, that is, the men of war who came out of Egypt, perished because they did not listen to the voice of the LORD, to whom the LORD had sworn that He would not let them see the land which the LORD had sworn to their fathers to give us, a land flowing with milk and honey.”
So you see, Obedience to GOD is really important. Trusting him even when we don’t know what the future might bring, after all, only HE holds the future.